Why must they do this,
I thought they trusted me,
Seems I was wrong,
Wrong about everythin'.
I thought they would let me go,
Let me handle it on my own,
But no, they don't want to,
They're scared, afraid for me,
I understand, I appreciate it,
But I wanna go,
Wanna try it out on my own,
Wanna step out into the world,
But they don't wanna let me go,
Why must they do this,
Why can't they understand,
I need to do this for myself,
Need to understand it on my own,
Wanna try, it's not like I want to be an adult, no,
I just wanna try, wanna know on my own,
Now I just don't know,
What to do,
Cuz' they've broken my trust and my respect for them,
Now I'm trapped in another web,
Falling deeper everytime I cry,
I'm in nowhere, there's no sky,
No friend, no light,
I just don't know.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
I Know It's Just Life
::Verse of the Day::
-Written by Me-
Life's going good,
Managed to make a compromise,
Instead of getting stuck,
I actually had luck this time,
Thank you this God of mine.
Also, I have good friends,
Both old and new,
I thank my God that I have both,
I like them all,
But today I found out about one,
Who has told me and my other friends lies.
I feel betrayed, cause it's happening again,
Same thing, but this time it ain't family, but friend,
Hurt to bring this up but I have to, for my own sake,
So I can express myself and my pain,
And wonder why is this happening again.
But a part of me understands,
That it's just part of life,
Yet I still feel hurt,
But I know it'll be okay,
A part of me says "Nevermind"
Cuz' I have friends who I can trust and confide in,
So yea, it's just life.
-Written by Me-
Life's going good,
Managed to make a compromise,
Instead of getting stuck,
I actually had luck this time,
Thank you this God of mine.
Also, I have good friends,
Both old and new,
I thank my God that I have both,
I like them all,
But today I found out about one,
Who has told me and my other friends lies.
I feel betrayed, cause it's happening again,
Same thing, but this time it ain't family, but friend,
Hurt to bring this up but I have to, for my own sake,
So I can express myself and my pain,
And wonder why is this happening again.
But a part of me understands,
That it's just part of life,
Yet I still feel hurt,
But I know it'll be okay,
A part of me says "Nevermind"
Cuz' I have friends who I can trust and confide in,
So yea, it's just life.
The friend who lied is someone I'm referring to is from school. NOT my CHC or cell group friends =)
But sadly, it's just life, so yeah... I'll get through it xD
-Appreciating Life and Knowing its just a Neverending Cycle =D
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
My View on Friends
::Verse of the Day:: [Written by me]
You get true friends in only one lifetime,
Cuz' you have only one life,
If you waste it then that's the end of it,
Cuz' you won't be able to come back after your time ends,
Which is why you need to enjoy all of it,
Every hour, every minute, every second,
So that you won't regret it,
Spending your life with your family, cared ones and friends.
The verse above there is true. You can't have another life. Yes, there's a possibility that you may reincarnate one day but you won't have the same friends or family and stuff. You will have a new life, but not the same friends.
Yes, it's harsh, but it's flat-out reality.
Here's another one.
Cuz' you have only one life,
If you waste it then that's the end of it,
Cuz' you won't be able to come back after your time ends,
Which is why you need to enjoy all of it,
Every hour, every minute, every second,
So that you won't regret it,
Spending your life with your family, cared ones and friends.
The verse above there is true. You can't have another life. Yes, there's a possibility that you may reincarnate one day but you won't have the same friends or family and stuff. You will have a new life, but not the same friends.
Yes, it's harsh, but it's flat-out reality.
Here's another one.
Life's a great big rollercoaster,
Ups and downs, good and bad times occur,
But your friends will be there,
To help and support,
Laugh and cry,
They'll be your pillars of light,
Chasing the darkness away as always.
Thats all for today.
Night!~~
-True Friends are Forever
Ups and downs, good and bad times occur,
But your friends will be there,
To help and support,
Laugh and cry,
They'll be your pillars of light,
Chasing the darkness away as always.
Thats all for today.
Night!~~
-True Friends are Forever
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Today
::VERSE OF THE DAY::
.Written by me.
Boring, life today was so boring,
All with friends, yet so boring,
Till I wanted to sleep, and sleep,
But I didn't cause I was such a good student,
Which is so half-true and partly false,
So don't kill me for this, no,
Don't kill me for being bored,
Instead kill the source of it all,
The source which evil name is BOREDOM,
Used in sentences such as "This is so boring!!!~"
.Written by me.
Boring, life today was so boring,
All with friends, yet so boring,
Till I wanted to sleep, and sleep,
But I didn't cause I was such a good student,
Which is so half-true and partly false,
So don't kill me for this, no,
Don't kill me for being bored,
Instead kill the source of it all,
The source which evil name is BOREDOM,
Used in sentences such as "This is so boring!!!~"
Today was so boring. Seriously!
As I told my friend on Facebook, I was so bored in school till wanted to sleep. @@ Gah. Honest!!! And was also really bored till I played poker. On Facebook. n.n I am/was THAT BORED!!!
My Facebook status: Michelle Lim is bored and feels a bit evil and mischievous. Be afraid. Be VERY afraid...
Yep, was THAT bored @@
Oh, and, all the verses and stuff which are like songs/poetry/songs+poetry ARE WRITTEN BY ME!!!!!!! So, NO STEALING or I'll hunt you down! You have been warned. Hehe.. If u want to show it to someone, PLEASE GIVE CREDITS TO ME =P
Or request one. Whatever.
-cough-
Patrick -> Stray Cat
Chronicles -> Spongebob
.etc
I don't know why I wrote that. Must be because I just went facebook to see what they commented about the pics I tagged them in. Ha. Go see if u're curious.
So yeah, I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well, at least choralspeaking competition's acoming.... Sadly along with exams and stuff. NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!! T.T I feel so sad. Summore have geo kerja khursus. . . . . . . . . . . . . Haihzz.. What to do?? Oh well, thats the end of this extremely boring post.
-goes to Adele's profile for Subzone piccys-
Byebye!!~~ -waves-
-What a boring day today was. @@
Monday, July 20, 2009
Lost
Here it comes once again,
Coming to overwhelm my heart,
My mind, my soul, my entire being,
I don't know what to do,
No, I don't know what to do.
I need support, I need help,
Yet I don't want to trouble them with these problems of mine,
One would wonder why, even though I'm lost, almost helpless,
It's simple, for as I don't want them to worry nor fear for me,
This is my battle, and not theirs...
Yet a part of me hopes that they will come and help,
But my rational and too-good side refuses to do so,
So here I am now, wandering in this world,
Alone, desolate, and lost,
As my mind is cast into the abyss of confusion and fear.
On the side note, I have good things as well,
Won a trophy today, for a spelling competition,
All the while I acted surprised cause I honestly had forgotten,
Yes, my mind is and was that tormented with that much thoughts.
One after another, thoughts come and flee,
And so does emotions ranging from frustration to happiness,
After all this I'm still not free,
Leaving myself frustrated and almost helpless,
Eventhough I know I wasn't.
I have a perfectly good life,
This seems excellent on the surface,
But deep down, is the REAL me, partly hiding,
And also partly shown,
I wonder, as always, when would I be able to show them all
the whole of me,
The person I am and always will be,
although there might be changes in the times ahead,
Again, as I said, I hope that one day, I will be able to show them,
Show them all, the true, real and genuine ME.
Coming to overwhelm my heart,
My mind, my soul, my entire being,
I don't know what to do,
No, I don't know what to do.
I need support, I need help,
Yet I don't want to trouble them with these problems of mine,
One would wonder why, even though I'm lost, almost helpless,
It's simple, for as I don't want them to worry nor fear for me,
This is my battle, and not theirs...
Yet a part of me hopes that they will come and help,
But my rational and too-good side refuses to do so,
So here I am now, wandering in this world,
Alone, desolate, and lost,
As my mind is cast into the abyss of confusion and fear.
On the side note, I have good things as well,
Won a trophy today, for a spelling competition,
All the while I acted surprised cause I honestly had forgotten,
Yes, my mind is and was that tormented with that much thoughts.
One after another, thoughts come and flee,
And so does emotions ranging from frustration to happiness,
After all this I'm still not free,
Leaving myself frustrated and almost helpless,
Eventhough I know I wasn't.
I have a perfectly good life,
This seems excellent on the surface,
But deep down, is the REAL me, partly hiding,
And also partly shown,
I wonder, as always, when would I be able to show them all
the whole of me,
The person I am and always will be,
although there might be changes in the times ahead,
Again, as I said, I hope that one day, I will be able to show them,
Show them all, the true, real and genuine ME.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Confusion
Mood for morning:
Life's full of ups and downs,
Yet I drown in confusion,
It's not letting me go nor run,
Can't hide cuz' its just pointless to,
Feel as if going into depression,
Yet when I went into that place
I stood still, entranced by
the wonders of time and serenity,
Yet strings of emotions tug at my heart,
still not letting me hide or go,
Pulling me, pulling me along,
Should I escape or follow?
That I ask myself,
But I just don't know, no,
I just don't know.
Mood After that:
I finally made a decision,
After thinkin' of the pros and cons
including the consequences,
Both had benefits and no benefits,
Yet I followed my heart and mind and decided,
And I still wonder if it's the right one,
Longing's tempting me, enchanting me again,
Trapping me into its web,
Luring me to its lair,
But I will try, try to run, try to escape, try to hide,
This I promise myself,
Yet I go and come again,
Go and come again.
Mood for Afternoon:
I still wonder, confusion's trapping me again,
Now I am already deep inside its lair,
Although I already decided, yet here I am again,
I know it ain't gonna let me go ever, but I try,
Yet I know I can't run, can't hide,
Anger comes again, of frustration this time,
I restrain myself, not letting it run free,
Not letting it hurt them again,
Yet I wonder if its the right thing,
To do all this time.
Mood for Evening:
I feel as if I'm nowhere,
In the abyss of nothingness,
Cuz' there's just me, myself and I,
I don't know what to do,
I honestly don't have a clue,
Anger comes and go,
Confusion traps me, lurking,
Desperation's in my mind,
Shadows coming after me,
Pulling, wanting to embrace me,
But I resist, restrained that part of me
Who wanted the shadows to come,
To engulf me, to embrace the abyss,
But still I resist that pull, that tugging,
I hope that I will have strength to continue
this struggle of mine, this struggle which
no one sees, hear or know of,
I hope to accomplish this so.
Life's full of ups and downs,
Yet I drown in confusion,
It's not letting me go nor run,
Can't hide cuz' its just pointless to,
Feel as if going into depression,
Yet when I went into that place
I stood still, entranced by
the wonders of time and serenity,
Yet strings of emotions tug at my heart,
still not letting me hide or go,
Pulling me, pulling me along,
Should I escape or follow?
That I ask myself,
But I just don't know, no,
I just don't know.
Mood After that:
I finally made a decision,
After thinkin' of the pros and cons
including the consequences,
Both had benefits and no benefits,
Yet I followed my heart and mind and decided,
And I still wonder if it's the right one,
Longing's tempting me, enchanting me again,
Trapping me into its web,
Luring me to its lair,
But I will try, try to run, try to escape, try to hide,
This I promise myself,
Yet I go and come again,
Go and come again.
Mood for Afternoon:
I still wonder, confusion's trapping me again,
Now I am already deep inside its lair,
Although I already decided, yet here I am again,
I know it ain't gonna let me go ever, but I try,
Yet I know I can't run, can't hide,
Anger comes again, of frustration this time,
I restrain myself, not letting it run free,
Not letting it hurt them again,
Yet I wonder if its the right thing,
To do all this time.
Mood for Evening:
I feel as if I'm nowhere,
In the abyss of nothingness,
Cuz' there's just me, myself and I,
I don't know what to do,
I honestly don't have a clue,
Anger comes and go,
Confusion traps me, lurking,
Desperation's in my mind,
Shadows coming after me,
Pulling, wanting to embrace me,
But I resist, restrained that part of me
Who wanted the shadows to come,
To engulf me, to embrace the abyss,
But still I resist that pull, that tugging,
I hope that I will have strength to continue
this struggle of mine, this struggle which
no one sees, hear or know of,
I hope to accomplish this so.
Just About Saturday
Mood for morning:
Life's givin me what I want
I love my life cuz everything's so good
Feeling like I'm soaring across the skies
Not crashin', not burnin' like the ashes of death,
the other side of life.
Mood for 12noon:
Crashed into a wall, falling down,
Deep into the darkness, the abyss of depression
Wanna run, wanna hide but there's nowhere,
cuz I'm already down,
Fear and pain already in my possession.
Mood for 3-6pm:
Running free and rampant like heaven's air
Stoppin' for a moment, time's frozen,
Frozen by the icy chills and staglamites
Embracin' me and my mind,
Then there I go free again,
Just to hesitate all for nothin',
Sudden nervousness comes and gets me stuck,
As if I had just run out of luck,
Me going deeper into the lion's lair,
There and back again,
Here I am again, happy and free,
But then I go again into the lion's lair,
There and back again,
There and back again.
Mood for evening:
I feel as if walls are surrounding me,
Closing me, engulfing me,
No means of escape, no runnin'
No hiding, cuz its the middle of nowhere,
I try to forget it all, get through the evening,
But its still there, inside me, deep within,
Sensually, slyly, luring me back to its lair,
Entrapping me in its web,
Poisoning me as each part of me
slowly goes back to the lair of its webs.
Current mood:
I feel as if I'm alone in this world,
No one with me, no friend nor foe,
No family, no stress, no one pushin' me,
As if I'm the only person,
Within its invisible web,
Trappin' me, yet at times let me run free,
I run, I try to hide, but it's all pointless,
All for nothin' cuz there's nothin',
I'm in the middle of nowhere,
Alone and desolate,
Desires of the heart and mind still there,
Yet I feel I can't fufill them,
Cuz' I'm afraid, I don't dare,
Should I change, do I dare?
I ask myself this again and again,
Yet the web continues to spin,
As I keep fallin' and climbin'.
Life's givin me what I want
I love my life cuz everything's so good
Feeling like I'm soaring across the skies
Not crashin', not burnin' like the ashes of death,
the other side of life.
Mood for 12noon:
Crashed into a wall, falling down,
Deep into the darkness, the abyss of depression
Wanna run, wanna hide but there's nowhere,
cuz I'm already down,
Fear and pain already in my possession.
Mood for 3-6pm:
Running free and rampant like heaven's air
Stoppin' for a moment, time's frozen,
Frozen by the icy chills and staglamites
Embracin' me and my mind,
Then there I go free again,
Just to hesitate all for nothin',
Sudden nervousness comes and gets me stuck,
As if I had just run out of luck,
Me going deeper into the lion's lair,
There and back again,
Here I am again, happy and free,
But then I go again into the lion's lair,
There and back again,
There and back again.
Mood for evening:
I feel as if walls are surrounding me,
Closing me, engulfing me,
No means of escape, no runnin'
No hiding, cuz its the middle of nowhere,
I try to forget it all, get through the evening,
But its still there, inside me, deep within,
Sensually, slyly, luring me back to its lair,
Entrapping me in its web,
Poisoning me as each part of me
slowly goes back to the lair of its webs.
Current mood:
I feel as if I'm alone in this world,
No one with me, no friend nor foe,
No family, no stress, no one pushin' me,
As if I'm the only person,
Within its invisible web,
Trappin' me, yet at times let me run free,
I run, I try to hide, but it's all pointless,
All for nothin' cuz there's nothin',
I'm in the middle of nowhere,
Alone and desolate,
Desires of the heart and mind still there,
Yet I feel I can't fufill them,
Cuz' I'm afraid, I don't dare,
Should I change, do I dare?
I ask myself this again and again,
Yet the web continues to spin,
As I keep fallin' and climbin'.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Subzone
QUOTE OF THE DAY::
Weeeeeeeeeeee....... Today was just. so. fun!!!!! I mean, Subzone anyway. Suffered in PJ.. Had to do this Segak thingy.... Gahhh.... Must cont nxt week. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
Anyway, about Subzone. Its like when a few cell groups come one place and theres one leader. So it was really fun~~~~ Loved it. =D
Ha, poor Mark, kena so many times. Had to makan and makan. Ahahahahahaha! =P xP Hehehee... Today was 4 of the members' b'day. One or two of them's was tomorrow but celebrate today, heehee. But yeah, really fun.
Loved the dances. Damn funnyyy!! Rofl weii... Chronicles was gooooood at the keyboard. Can sing summore o.o Ha, poor Vincent, had to dance. With Adrian and Kah Jun summore. Ahahahahahahah!!! Got others also... Hehe..
And the games were fun. @@
EVIL BLACK BALLL!!!!!
Drink so much water! Oh well!! =P
And 30 seconds of Fame. OMG i cant believe I went and played the keyboard o.o Miracle happen!!
Heheeee... =D
Aihhhhhhhhhhhhh....... Tomorrow Leo I.U... But also got church+possible dinner!! AIHHHH!!!!! What to doo!?!?!?!!? @@ Eek... So confuseed T.T Haihzz..
If I.U gt nothing much I shall go church =D
OK, bye for now~~
-Destiny is a wonderful thing at times. I love my life right now.
END:
Weeeeeeeeeeee....... Today was just. so. fun!!!!! I mean, Subzone anyway. Suffered in PJ.. Had to do this Segak thingy.... Gahhh.... Must cont nxt week. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
Anyway, about Subzone. Its like when a few cell groups come one place and theres one leader. So it was really fun~~~~ Loved it. =D
Ha, poor Mark, kena so many times. Had to makan and makan. Ahahahahahaha! =P xP Hehehee... Today was 4 of the members' b'day. One or two of them's was tomorrow but celebrate today, heehee. But yeah, really fun.
Loved the dances. Damn funnyyy!! Rofl weii... Chronicles was gooooood at the keyboard. Can sing summore o.o Ha, poor Vincent, had to dance. With Adrian and Kah Jun summore. Ahahahahahahah!!! Got others also... Hehe..
And the games were fun. @@
EVIL BLACK BALLL!!!!!
Drink so much water! Oh well!! =P
And 30 seconds of Fame. OMG i cant believe I went and played the keyboard o.o Miracle happen!!
Heheeee... =D
Aihhhhhhhhhhhhh....... Tomorrow Leo I.U... But also got church+possible dinner!! AIHHHH!!!!! What to doo!?!?!?!!? @@ Eek... So confuseed T.T Haihzz..
If I.U gt nothing much I shall go church =D
OK, bye for now~~
-Destiny is a wonderful thing at times. I love my life right now.
END:
Sunday, July 5, 2009
-Friends-
I thank my God that I have friends and that I have met new ones. I'm grateful and appreciate their humour, friendliness and understanding. Thanks for being my friends!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Dropping By, AND DON'T FORGET THE PHANTOM!
Hah. Title got your attention?
Its like today's title says~~~
I'm just dropping by for a while, yes, I know, I didn't post for two weeks. So no need to berate or lecture me about blogging. Try lecturing me the next thing you know I'll be ignoring you and getting your temper up.
Yes I know that was uncalled for as well =D
Um, ANYWAY....
-cough-
Today was the day when all Form 2 classes had to perform their version of the Phantom of the Opera~~
So fun.
Bland.
And happy.
Oh, and awesome!
=D
Hehe...
So, first group.. Um.. who was the first group...? I forgot. Erm, anyways..
2nd group was my friend Nitya's group!
They were not bad at all~~ She was playing Madame Giry, same character as me! @@
3rd group - Ding's group! Ding's a choralspeaker by the way.
They were AWESOME. Sharmaine rocked with her La Carlotta role! Ha, great job Shar! Jinxian did a pretty good job with her role as Christine Daae as well. Nice one, Jinxian. Ding was really convincing as Raoul, the Vicomte de Chagny, fantastic by the way, loved the swordfighting scene with Zarif. Made me wish I brought my handphone. Shh, don't tell Rajinder or Saiful or Rohaya! -looks around hurriedly- Anyway, Zarif did a really nice job with his role as Erik, the Phantom of the Opera as well.
That reminds me! The music! Made me laugh pretty hard at the Pink Panther theme song where the Persian(who was the Persian again? Nvm) and Ding as Raoul 'went down through the secret passages and stairs'. And Shar, great job on the "Think of Me" song. OH! And the swordfighting scene. OK, that so rocked. I was like "Whoa, they're really good."
All in all, I think their group was really the best, although I can't say for definite yet cause there're.... (counts: 10,11,12,13...) 4 more groups tomorrow, so yeah. But so far they're the most awesome group ever!!!!! I really wouldn't be surprised if they won at all. Seriously.
-Fast forward-
My group. Ack, group 5.
I say we sucked, but others say we weren't that bad. We were, erm, good. According to them anyway. But it was so messed up!!!!! =X -refuses to explain-
I had the role of Madame Giry and the Doctor. For the Madame Giry part, I wore a pale peach shirt with a design on it and a black skirt with red designs. For Doctor, I wore the PBSM shirt and skirt. o.O
Genia....hahahahahaa. She had the part of Raoul and La Carlotta. Made me laugh. Seriously.
Kek, who was playing the role of Erik, since we had no mask, we painted his face white.....
Jc's group, ok, not that bad. Really. Jc...looked like a gangster with the hoodie @@ I was like, O.O, what the heck?
And nice job with the Monsieur Armand~~~
And I talked with the almighty UDR who said tomorrow start practise after Form 2 recess. Joy~~~
So that pretty much wrapped up today.
Adios!!
-Sometimes you just have to believe-
-Maybe, just maybe, it'll come...-
Its like today's title says~~~
I'm just dropping by for a while, yes, I know, I didn't post for two weeks. So no need to berate or lecture me about blogging. Try lecturing me the next thing you know I'll be ignoring you and getting your temper up.
Yes I know that was uncalled for as well =D
Um, ANYWAY....
-cough-
Today was the day when all Form 2 classes had to perform their version of the Phantom of the Opera~~
So fun.
Bland.
And happy.
Oh, and awesome!
=D
Hehe...
So, first group.. Um.. who was the first group...? I forgot. Erm, anyways..
2nd group was my friend Nitya's group!
They were not bad at all~~ She was playing Madame Giry, same character as me! @@
3rd group - Ding's group! Ding's a choralspeaker by the way.
They were AWESOME. Sharmaine rocked with her La Carlotta role! Ha, great job Shar! Jinxian did a pretty good job with her role as Christine Daae as well. Nice one, Jinxian. Ding was really convincing as Raoul, the Vicomte de Chagny, fantastic by the way, loved the swordfighting scene with Zarif. Made me wish I brought my handphone. Shh, don't tell Rajinder or Saiful or Rohaya! -looks around hurriedly- Anyway, Zarif did a really nice job with his role as Erik, the Phantom of the Opera as well.
That reminds me! The music! Made me laugh pretty hard at the Pink Panther theme song where the Persian(who was the Persian again? Nvm) and Ding as Raoul 'went down through the secret passages and stairs'. And Shar, great job on the "Think of Me" song. OH! And the swordfighting scene. OK, that so rocked. I was like "Whoa, they're really good."
All in all, I think their group was really the best, although I can't say for definite yet cause there're.... (counts: 10,11,12,13...) 4 more groups tomorrow, so yeah. But so far they're the most awesome group ever!!!!! I really wouldn't be surprised if they won at all. Seriously.
-Fast forward-
My group. Ack, group 5.
I say we sucked, but others say we weren't that bad. We were, erm, good. According to them anyway. But it was so messed up!!!!! =X -refuses to explain-
I had the role of Madame Giry and the Doctor. For the Madame Giry part, I wore a pale peach shirt with a design on it and a black skirt with red designs. For Doctor, I wore the PBSM shirt and skirt. o.O
Genia....hahahahahaa. She had the part of Raoul and La Carlotta. Made me laugh. Seriously.
Kek, who was playing the role of Erik, since we had no mask, we painted his face white.....
Jc's group, ok, not that bad. Really. Jc...looked like a gangster with the hoodie @@ I was like, O.O, what the heck?
And nice job with the Monsieur Armand~~~
And I talked with the almighty UDR who said tomorrow start practise after Form 2 recess. Joy~~~
So that pretty much wrapped up today.
Adios!!
-Sometimes you just have to believe-
-Maybe, just maybe, it'll come...-
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